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Yes, crushed.
I suppose I should feel happy for Blanca and Xaime, but it is too soon for that; instead, I feel loss, abandonment, and sadness; I feel regret; I feel foolish. I even feel somewhat misled and used. Mostly, though, I just feel crushed. Am I being selfish, foolish, or just plain stupid?
Maybe I deserve to be crushed. Maybe I deserve to be wrong about love again.
